sixteenth.

I did it. I got my tattoo yesterday. It's a bit different from the picture I posted, because the artist redrew it for me, but I absolutely love it. It's on my left shoulderblade, and I couldn't be happier. I'll post a picture as soon as it's healed. Everyone of course is asking what it means.. so I tell them- it represents freedom, being free from everything, and being able to just fly away. What I don't tell them? That I want to be able to fly, to have hollow bones, to be light as air, and spread my wings and fly away. It's weird, I feel almost like..I'm not alone. It's there almost keeping me company, a part of me, not just a symbol inked on my skin. Also it makes me feel independent, and solidifies the notions I've been ignoring that I am good enough, and I can be who I want to be.

Just not sure how pleased my mother will be. Anyway.

Yesterday wasn't too bad, no breakfast, grilled cheese and tomato soup with cucumber and turkey for lunch (guessing..600cal?) then dinner was a veg fajita and a beef fajita, didn't eat the tortillas, and just added tomatoes and a tiny dab of sour cream. so guessing also around 600cal, at most. Okay, so I weakened and got ice cream..(I burned my mouth the other night so it was soothing..) but not too much, and then walked a mile right afterwards. I felt so sick as soon as I stopped eating, but I had to walk to this concert with my friend L, so I sadly wasn't able to purge. Which is good, I suppose, as my throat hurts plenty thanks to the strep, or tonsillitis, whatever it is. Anyway. Let's thing positively.

J, (don't know if I mentioned him, but he's absolutely gorgeous though a junior..i'm a freshman..he's a poli sci major and does naval rotc) texted me last night asking what I was doing, I said I just had a night in, did a bit of work(white lie on the work part) and he said hopefully he'd see me today. :) yay. I have class 11-12 (so must go workout beforehand) then work 5-10 but maybe after. I have to get an entire calc assignment done in between then. Slightly screwed, should've done it last night. Or should've done it wednesday night, or should've drank less wednesday night and done it  yesterday morning. Oh well. Regrets are no use.

Think I've sorted out my schedule for the fall, the classes I'm taking sound interesting so I'm excited. As I said, I'm off to the gym. It's been far too long. In terms of food today..I'll eat when I get back after class, go to the caf and get YOGURT. Sounds super good right now. Throw in a banana, maybe a couple pieces of peach. Yum. Then..I guess if I'm hungry I'll grab a piece of fruit before work and probably take a granola bar with me just in case..doesn't mean I'll eat it though. Anyway, I'm off!

Have a good day ladies, remember to always see the positives:)
And the greatest positive of all is seeing the negative--as the pounds fall off us:)
think thin! xo

i just love everything about this picture.