fifth.

and,  oh, how I wish I had a fifth right now.

For every day that he doesn't want me, I won't eat. Hell, hearing him say that just makes me feel sick anyway. So no motivation to shove food in my mouth anytime soon. I hate this. I wish he'd give me a chance to show him we could be better. Why?

also:: everytime I put something in my mouth, it's being recorded. Yes. I'll just keep updating this post rather than blowing up everyone's dashboards though.

1 mini cadbury's creme egg -50cal (yikes!)
1 cadbury's mini egg -16cal
.2 bottle alo - 12cal
2 gummy vitamins -15cal
1 piece raspberry lemonade gum -0cal.
beef&broccoli stirfry -120cal
rice -50cal
.5 veg wrap -65cal

total: 228cal. blech.

6pm update:
1 grande iced coffee -5cal
naked mango smoothie -120cal (booo)
pasta -200cal
assorted egg/meat/crap -120cal
hardboiled egg white -17cal
2 pieces of blueberry buckle -400cal
softserve ice cream -200cal
BINGEBINGEBINGE.
purged as much as i could..confident i got all the ice cream and blueberry crap up.

total: 690cal. gross. i'm so bloated. i hate this.
no wonder he doesn't wanna be with me.