blah.

i binged for a week straight. don't know why. gained 2.5lbs. i'd been at my lowest. feeling so so shitty. haven't worked out in too long..been too depressed to go to class so haven't even moved alot. i fucking hate this. i hate how i look and i hate how i feel. my new tattoo was supposed to encourage me to keep losing weight. it's not on my ribs anymore. it's just on my fat.
i'm such a disgusting fucking pig. no more food. no more laziness. it's time.

whoa.

whoa there. thanks for all the support !! totally unexpected. can't believe i ever left blogger.
my life is falling apart around me and the only thing i can control anymore is what i eat. so i'll eat nothing. if i have nothing else, at least i'll be thin, right?

:(

my therapist made me realize how much i hate myself. and that i truly believe i am worthless. it's like i pay her to make me feel worse.

111.5

damn. never thought this would happen. still not good enough though. 100-105 will be perfect. i want to be 100. or 101 cause i like that number. but if i look good enough at 105 and actually like myself for the first time in six years? then yes. going with that.

happy weightloss, loves.

well...hello again

hi hi blogger world.

i guess it's been a while.. i made a tumblr and got sucked into using that instead. plus i got sick of typing and talking and thinking so i preferred mindlessly looking at and reblogging thinspo.
http://skinnybonesplease.tumblr.com, if you're interested.

anyway. i'm okay. i mean i've definitely been better but there we go.
so how's tricks? did i miss anything big around here?