hello apathy.

i went through a onerepublic stage once, it's okay.

but really. i'm done caring. i don't care about anything. i don't feel anything but anger and resentment and frustration and this other terribly depressing and painful and heavy and impossible emotion that i just can't put a name on it and all this drives me to do nothing but hate myself and for some FUCKING reason stuff my fat face with food. which is disgusting. i hate everything. i hate myself. all i do is pick stupid fights with my boyfriend to hurt him because I'M hurting and it sucks goddamnit, it really does, and i don't know what to effing do about it.